I am a fish inside a fish tank

My story begun in the muddy waters of Amazon. I didn’t like my first home inside a small shell. I always thought about what’s outside that shell? Will I be able to see my mom? How she will be? Is she going to like me? How many siblings I will have? Is there any other shell outside this one? If there is how long it will take me to get out of it? And yet how long it will take me to get out of this one. Being alone that’s all I could do. Just think and wait. Expecting and hoping for the best

Walah I was out swimming around in the muddy water with bunch of other fishes I may call my siblings. A big fish was keeping us all together I may assume my mother. I don’t remember that I called her “mama” the first time I saw her or even we suppose to have relatives. Life in the river wasn’t of my type. I wanted to explore, swim as far as I can make new friends, discover new places. My mom warned me about Piranhas, our lethal nemesis. She told us a story about her friend who some how got alone and got eaten up. Being curious I always asked her about where she has been? Is there any interesting place she saw? Any dangerous species she encountered? Is there any other place better than this muddy water? She told me about the ocean and sharks. She even said that sharks are worse than Piranhas and I wondered why? I wanted to go out of the muddy water, swim across the ocean see some sharks may be some of them will not be the way my mom told me may some could be my friends

At last I was able to live on my own. I lived my own life. Hunted for myself and lived for myself. I wasn’t selfish though I had many friends. I realized that’s the way it was. You have to live for yourself and you have to fight for yourself but the most important part is that you have to be yourself and that’s what I was doing.

I thought I had a life until I was caught. They pulled me out of the water. Ofcourse I had seen sky many times the sun, the stars, the moon, the light but being outside the water was completely different. It was like I was loosing the grip of my life, my breathing intensifying, my fin splashing, my whole body was aching. Being an explorer it was a new experience for me but wasn’t the one I wanted to have again. I fought hard but in the end I had to give up and I was out of the place where I lived, away from the people I loved. I don’t know what to expect next is this the end of the world? Or the end of myself? And then I was in the water again but it wasn’t the water I grew up in and it wasn’t big enough than a river let alone an ocean did I even saw the whole ocean? Infact I can barely swim but I was thankful that I was alive. Soon I was joined by others some of my type some of different. It went on until there wasn’t enough space for me to swim but I was glad that still I can breath. Gosh being positive sucks big time but that’s the way I was

From there we were shifted another place still small but with more fishes. I heard they call it a tank. At last I found myself in this tank where people come to see me like I am a celebrity or something. Sooner I realized that it isn’t an ordinary tank where people use to buy fishes and keep them as their pets. It’s a tank inside a big store people call grocery store in a small space people call sea food department where they sell fresh fish ready to be eaten. Looking back at my life I realized that I ended up in the same place where it all begins “a shell”. The only difference is that I became alive when I got out of the first one and I will be dead if I will get out of this one. Now may I ask how long it will take question to myself?

Note: This is a guest post by my friend, Muneeb.

Your decisions are all yours to make

There are times in your life, when you don't know, what is going to happen next. At times, you can't seem to decide, what should be your decision about that issue? Some times, you look for omens and signs. Some times, you pray. But, in the end, that single decision is ALL yours. So you better step back, take a deep breath, a moment of your own, and imagine, is that what you really want? Is that what you really should be doing?

That's the power, that makes us human. The power to choose, the power to decide.

Sometimes, you got to do things for others, for the people you love. Don't take them as sacrifices, feel proud in them. Because a simple fact that they you took that plunge, means you are STRONG.

Decisions, are mostly never easy. You make them easy. By making peace with them. You can never know for sure, for 100% certainty, that they will work out for you. There are too many parameters. But you still take that chance. And you should.

By experience I can tell you, things work out. If you work positively towards them, regardless of your environment, and surroundings.

As I am writing this, I am feeling motivated, to just simply go for my dreams. And at least TRY turning them into reality.

That decision is all mine. Similarly, your decisions, are ALL yours. Take them, stick to them, until you feel its right, discuss with people around and you feel like, its time to move on, MOVE ON.

Have a great day.

and 2010 resolution part 2

Thanks to Ivan.

New year resolution for 2010

I am JUST GOING TO DO IT!

Year 2010 - Best so far

Well, no matter what is going on in our minds, we still have a choice to feel and be happy. Because we are still better than the millions, may be billions.

May this be the best year in our lives so far. Amen.

Hinder - The best is yet to come

One of the songs, that made me think, some things are not for you to control, rather you should just let them go, and follow your dreams, and just do them, just make them happen. This goes out to all those who are courageous enough to dream.

The best of the hinder's lyrics from it:

Just go for it, run towards it, dive in headfirst,

live life with no regret,

Put your heart out there, don't get scared,

You might get hurt, but it's all worth it in the end,

'cause the best is yet to come.

Imagination and Albert Einstein

There are two quotes I read today, and I can't help sharing them. So here they are, read and think for a while.

“Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life's coming attractions.”

and

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.”

Albert Einstein

Dreams

A song of me that remained unsung,

Words flew around, desperate to be sung,

The lines of passion soared together,

A rhythm of devotion that lives forever;

When you play the guitar without its strings,

When you fly your eagle without its wings,

that's the time when you are dreaming alone,

And try to soar with the wind that's really gone;

Tears of heaven fell on the clouds of dream,

No one knows what they really seem,

Dreams are not true, this is what i know,

so don't hold them tight, just let them go;

Feeling the intense beam of my heartbeat,

A beam of dream, which forced me to meet,

To meet my soul with my passion,

To make me mine in an uncommon fashion;

Electrically my dreams were neutral from the start,

Don't know how, the heaven of me played its part,

took me to the border of unleashed time,

Stole something from me that's really mine;

Listen my dear, don't expect too much,

Just don't long for that soothing touch,

Dreams are wanted,yes,its true,

But the best for you is only you.

Motivation : Something we all should have

It's Inside Us.

There have been a lot of complaining going around here on this blog, some great people insisting and telling me that I really haven't been able to update my blog, in the real true sense of updating it. :)

Reason? The way I see it, it was the motivation. I wasn't motivated to update it, that regularly, rather was focused and motivated regarding my other stuff. Since realizing that it was the motivational factor that caused the delay, I thought I should say something about it.

Everybody really needs to be motivated about something. Yes, you read it right. NEEDS TO BE. We all humans need some targets in our lives, that result into our ambitions or aspirations, and for those we all need to be well motivated. The best kind of motivation to me is the self-motivation.

Self-motivation is something, that is not hard to find. It's rather just a difficult realization. We all know, its going to come from ourselves. It's inside us. But seldom we all realize. We end up telling ourselves that looking for this kind of motivation doesn't worth it.And we don't need it. But its WRONG. Being self-motivated is a proof, that you know your purpose. And we all have some purpose, don't we?

Sometimes we look for other factors that motivate us. That I call the external factors. They are strong like money, success, fame, or acceptance. BUT, the strongest of them all is the motivation that doesn't need any external factors, its the self-motivation.

...find out, what you really love to do

To know what you want to do; To know what you will be doing; And to know what is that thing when you do it you will be the happiest. Such thoughts, are the indicators, that yes you are self-motivated. So for that the first step is to find out, what you really love to do. I mean really really really really love to do.

Just for one moment, forget about the environmental circumstances, and think. Think clearly. Think ideally. What do you really want? And when you find it out. Attach passion to it. Just go on doing it, regardless of whatever is happening around. You will find motivation. You will be doing it all by yourself, without even pushing yourself.

Remember, its easier said than done. So better try doing it, rather then just thinking about it. Like any other habit, you would just need to keep on trying and practising. One day you will savour.

Good luck.

Chris Daughtry - Open up your eyes

This post is not just about sharing this song with the world, its more about the essence I want to share out of it. That is, just for once, get out of your current situation, look at the nature, look without the blurry conscious of your seemingly regretful sorrows, and you might find the peace that you've been looking for. Nothing matters more than what you really wanna see in the world. Enjoy the song :)

For the first time you can open your eyes

And see the world without your sorrow

Where no one knows the pain you left behind

And all the peace you could never find

Is waiting there to hold and keep you

Welcome to the first day of your life

Just open up your eyes

When hope works...

Napoleon Hill once said:

"Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit."

What do we see being emphasized here? Whatever we are going through, whatever negative, it does contain an opportunity to reach out and grab the positive. All that we will make us believe that it is possible, is our HOPE. and Faith in our fates, that well-being is not just a prisoner of uncontrolled fate. Rather also requires some input from us.

Change. Hope. Both work along. We can't bring in a positive change unless we are hopeful. And we can't just be hopeful and wait for things to happen. We need to and we should take a step. Be the change. It's an uphill drive for sure. But it sure does worth it.

So don't let the bad times, pull you down. Rise up. Fight!

Finding hope

Where to start? Hope is right inside you. It's given to you by nature. All we need to do is dare discover it. Utilize it. Feel it. Breath the difference it makes.

Hope can give you a lot of things, that money can't; what other's can't. So would you stop hoping, because you didn't get the first grade? I don't think so. We still wanna hope, don't we?

Yes, it gives you strength, assures you to keep trying, the victory will be yours. So would you give up? or hope to win?

Never give up. Hope, strive, and keep up the efforts. Take the first step. That is considered to be the hardest.

Good luck.

Back

Recently, I haven't been able to update this blog, its been a month now. I won't say it was a bad idea. I had to pull back, give myself some time, and rethink things. For good of course. There are one or two thoughts, I would like to share.

Whenever there is a change, make sure you know, how your responsibilities are changing? Be ready. To rise up and serve them. These include responsibilities of every kind, to yourself, to your family and friends, to your work, and to Allah. It's important. For that one requires to be very flexible. Along the thinking process, I read somewhere:

"Today, is the first day of the rest of your life".

If we think a little, its true. By any means you can't challenge it. You know why? Because you can't change anything about your past. WHATEVER it is.

So decisions come to us, whether we wanna attach our today, to our present moments, or to our pasts.

Pasts are only for lessons learnt. And no lesson learnt is valuable, if we don't apply it. Simple.

One more thing I read. Find it truthfully deep, if we could really think along.

"Count your blessings, not your problems".

True right?

Anyways, I hope this post happens to be a good come back. Things have been busy lately. :)

Thank you all for your patience. Appreciate it. And all those asking me to update, did contribute, in making me update it. A special thank you for them.

P.S: Giving up is not a solution. So, Never give up, step back, change, strike!

Alter Bridge - Before tomorrow comes

Talk of a song, that brings out the best in you. Feeds you the motivation you need. The trigger to the internal drive. Its really one of those. Music, pumps the energy in the lyrics. In turn the combination is a booster for many. Its theme is very true. Its all about what you really wanna believe in. Staying back, and fighting your way up to the clouds, or falling back, denying to be happy. Choose right now!

The best lines from the song are:

So don't let it be

Before tomorrow comes

Before you turn away

Take the hand in need

Before tomorrow comes

You could change everything

And the song ends up with the line .. the essence of being truly a human:

We could be so much more than we are

Oh this much I know

Believe in yourself. and Be the trigger to happiness.

Life : A guest house

Today, I got to read a great piece of writing. It was shared by Danielle LaPorte, here.
It describes life as a guest house. And events as guests. My favorite lines are at the end, that are:

"...Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond."

Indeed, that is how we should be reacting to the events in our lives. Because in the end, its our reaction, and choices that shape our lives. Choose to be happy, no matter what.

Destination Unknown

There are some words that i left behind,

is there something that i should find,

i can do everything but i cant mourn,

somehow, some way i will find my destination unknown,

where is the motivation that i deserved,

a bit of imagination that remained preserved,

lets play that beat and sing that song,

i will always return, where i belong,

my heart has something and thats the only reason,

so i have to rise above and change the season,

got to find the special day,

wheres the destiny for this unknown way,

people laugh, but i only scream,

living this life like a dream,

strolling in the darkness but i can see,

Ah! feel so lonely like a leafless tree,

soon i'll get to that place,

indeed i'll bring a moment of grace,

sky will watch and people will see,

i have nothing but this crazy me,

my body is in the future but the mind is in the past,

there is an invisible shadow, that i always cast,

all the friends are lost, but feelings last,

dont believe me, but dear, fate do play its part.

Joe Satriani - Flying in a blue dream

Everyone who likes the guitar, knows who joe satriani is. It's one of his best instrumental. Picks up great. To me its a recharger. Energizes the mind vibes. Picks me up. Rejuvenate. Such tracks for me are an escape route to my objectives, whenever i m hung up in the complexities of life.

Lene Marlin - Faces

Today, is one of those days, when the mood is real light, low. Seeking smoothness. So, dived in to those kinda tracks today. Dug this out of my collection. Simple one; simple beat simple lyrics. Do try it. And i wish, i could dedicate it.

Okay, one more year passed, successfully

So here it is, another year I lived through successfully :). Its been a roller coaster. and expecting same ahead. Have seen a lot, learnt a lot. Experienced new things. Professionally; Personally. I have done well, but there is room for improvement. 

Yes, I am one year older but more content; and composed. More control over nerves. Keeping the best things to come along to the next year. and hoping for the best to come:)

Today's my birthday. the 12th of may.

Not to miss, I got to know a lot of good people through blogs. From whom, i learn something new everyday, and get to share somethings. Cherish that. So thank you; each and every one of you :)

Having a busy day so far. :)

One of the things that I have learnt so far is, never give up. never give up on your dreams. Unless you're sure, it's over. But at the same time, if you really care about some one, and that some one is willing to break free. Let it happen. What's really yours, will come to you. Just believe. Things can be simpler. We cannot have everything. Cherish, what we have. This life, will never be problem free. Its not perfect, unless YOU see it perfect. Things will fall apart. Nature's nature. It's us, who can make a difference, in our lives. and of course in lives of others.

May I be blessed with the power of helping others. and Making their lives easier. and Helping others realize and understand their problems. And to help them, figuring out the solution. Amen.

Placebo - Blind

One of the tracks, that can make you feel like crying out loud for help. :)

.. and please dont drive me blind! :)