I am a fish inside a fish tank

My story begun in the muddy waters of Amazon. I didn’t like my first home inside a small shell. I always thought about what’s outside that shell? Will I be able to see my mom? How she will be? Is she going to like me? How many siblings I will have? Is there any other shell outside this one? If there is how long it will take me to get out of it? And yet how long it will take me to get out of this one. Being alone that’s all I could do. Just think and wait. Expecting and hoping for the best

Walah I was out swimming around in the muddy water with bunch of other fishes I may call my siblings. A big fish was keeping us all together I may assume my mother. I don’t remember that I called her “mama” the first time I saw her or even we suppose to have relatives. Life in the river wasn’t of my type. I wanted to explore, swim as far as I can make new friends, discover new places. My mom warned me about Piranhas, our lethal nemesis. She told us a story about her friend who some how got alone and got eaten up. Being curious I always asked her about where she has been? Is there any interesting place she saw? Any dangerous species she encountered? Is there any other place better than this muddy water? She told me about the ocean and sharks. She even said that sharks are worse than Piranhas and I wondered why? I wanted to go out of the muddy water, swim across the ocean see some sharks may be some of them will not be the way my mom told me may some could be my friends

At last I was able to live on my own. I lived my own life. Hunted for myself and lived for myself. I wasn’t selfish though I had many friends. I realized that’s the way it was. You have to live for yourself and you have to fight for yourself but the most important part is that you have to be yourself and that’s what I was doing.

I thought I had a life until I was caught. They pulled me out of the water. Ofcourse I had seen sky many times the sun, the stars, the moon, the light but being outside the water was completely different. It was like I was loosing the grip of my life, my breathing intensifying, my fin splashing, my whole body was aching. Being an explorer it was a new experience for me but wasn’t the one I wanted to have again. I fought hard but in the end I had to give up and I was out of the place where I lived, away from the people I loved. I don’t know what to expect next is this the end of the world? Or the end of myself? And then I was in the water again but it wasn’t the water I grew up in and it wasn’t big enough than a river let alone an ocean did I even saw the whole ocean? Infact I can barely swim but I was thankful that I was alive. Soon I was joined by others some of my type some of different. It went on until there wasn’t enough space for me to swim but I was glad that still I can breath. Gosh being positive sucks big time but that’s the way I was

From there we were shifted another place still small but with more fishes. I heard they call it a tank. At last I found myself in this tank where people come to see me like I am a celebrity or something. Sooner I realized that it isn’t an ordinary tank where people use to buy fishes and keep them as their pets. It’s a tank inside a big store people call grocery store in a small space people call sea food department where they sell fresh fish ready to be eaten. Looking back at my life I realized that I ended up in the same place where it all begins “a shell”. The only difference is that I became alive when I got out of the first one and I will be dead if I will get out of this one. Now may I ask how long it will take question to myself?

Note: This is a guest post by my friend, Muneeb.

New year resolution for 2010

I am JUST GOING TO DO IT!

Year 2010 - Best so far

Well, no matter what is going on in our minds, we still have a choice to feel and be happy. Because we are still better than the millions, may be billions.

May this be the best year in our lives so far. Amen.

Hinder - The best is yet to come

One of the songs, that made me think, some things are not for you to control, rather you should just let them go, and follow your dreams, and just do them, just make them happen. This goes out to all those who are courageous enough to dream.

The best of the hinder's lyrics from it:

Just go for it, run towards it, dive in headfirst,

live life with no regret,

Put your heart out there, don't get scared,

You might get hurt, but it's all worth it in the end,

'cause the best is yet to come.

Dreams

A song of me that remained unsung,

Words flew around, desperate to be sung,

The lines of passion soared together,

A rhythm of devotion that lives forever;

When you play the guitar without its strings,

When you fly your eagle without its wings,

that's the time when you are dreaming alone,

And try to soar with the wind that's really gone;

Tears of heaven fell on the clouds of dream,

No one knows what they really seem,

Dreams are not true, this is what i know,

so don't hold them tight, just let them go;

Feeling the intense beam of my heartbeat,

A beam of dream, which forced me to meet,

To meet my soul with my passion,

To make me mine in an uncommon fashion;

Electrically my dreams were neutral from the start,

Don't know how, the heaven of me played its part,

took me to the border of unleashed time,

Stole something from me that's really mine;

Listen my dear, don't expect too much,

Just don't long for that soothing touch,

Dreams are wanted,yes,its true,

But the best for you is only you.

When hope works...

Napoleon Hill once said:

"Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit."

What do we see being emphasized here? Whatever we are going through, whatever negative, it does contain an opportunity to reach out and grab the positive. All that we will make us believe that it is possible, is our HOPE. and Faith in our fates, that well-being is not just a prisoner of uncontrolled fate. Rather also requires some input from us.

Change. Hope. Both work along. We can't bring in a positive change unless we are hopeful. And we can't just be hopeful and wait for things to happen. We need to and we should take a step. Be the change. It's an uphill drive for sure. But it sure does worth it.

So don't let the bad times, pull you down. Rise up. Fight!

Finding hope

Where to start? Hope is right inside you. It's given to you by nature. All we need to do is dare discover it. Utilize it. Feel it. Breath the difference it makes.

Hope can give you a lot of things, that money can't; what other's can't. So would you stop hoping, because you didn't get the first grade? I don't think so. We still wanna hope, don't we?

Yes, it gives you strength, assures you to keep trying, the victory will be yours. So would you give up? or hope to win?

Never give up. Hope, strive, and keep up the efforts. Take the first step. That is considered to be the hardest.

Good luck.

Destination Unknown

There are some words that i left behind,

is there something that i should find,

i can do everything but i cant mourn,

somehow, some way i will find my destination unknown,

where is the motivation that i deserved,

a bit of imagination that remained preserved,

lets play that beat and sing that song,

i will always return, where i belong,

my heart has something and thats the only reason,

so i have to rise above and change the season,

got to find the special day,

wheres the destiny for this unknown way,

people laugh, but i only scream,

living this life like a dream,

strolling in the darkness but i can see,

Ah! feel so lonely like a leafless tree,

soon i'll get to that place,

indeed i'll bring a moment of grace,

sky will watch and people will see,

i have nothing but this crazy me,

my body is in the future but the mind is in the past,

there is an invisible shadow, that i always cast,

all the friends are lost, but feelings last,

dont believe me, but dear, fate do play its part.

Okay, one more year passed, successfully

So here it is, another year I lived through successfully :). Its been a roller coaster. and expecting same ahead. Have seen a lot, learnt a lot. Experienced new things. Professionally; Personally. I have done well, but there is room for improvement. 

Yes, I am one year older but more content; and composed. More control over nerves. Keeping the best things to come along to the next year. and hoping for the best to come:)

Today's my birthday. the 12th of may.

Not to miss, I got to know a lot of good people through blogs. From whom, i learn something new everyday, and get to share somethings. Cherish that. So thank you; each and every one of you :)

Having a busy day so far. :)

One of the things that I have learnt so far is, never give up. never give up on your dreams. Unless you're sure, it's over. But at the same time, if you really care about some one, and that some one is willing to break free. Let it happen. What's really yours, will come to you. Just believe. Things can be simpler. We cannot have everything. Cherish, what we have. This life, will never be problem free. Its not perfect, unless YOU see it perfect. Things will fall apart. Nature's nature. It's us, who can make a difference, in our lives. and of course in lives of others.

May I be blessed with the power of helping others. and Making their lives easier. and Helping others realize and understand their problems. And to help them, figuring out the solution. Amen.

Without being sway

One night I asked myself to talk,

To talk to me, and let the fears walk,

Still, I m lying awake in my bed,

Swinging in my dreams, being blue and red,

Whether its autumn or spring, don’t care,

It’s a world of challenges, and yes I m here to dare,

I would fly, fly high even without my wings,

To the gardens of truth, where faith springs,

Can’t let the truth become a lie,

Want to go higher, where the dreams fly,

Need a vision; a trail of stars to follow,

Got to find bliss, and keep away the sorrow,

Beneath those shiny stars, without whom the night is nothing,

I sat on the mountain of dreams, thought of something,

About that something, that was mine long ago,

Would have those desires back, that’s what I know,

Trust, truth and care that’s what I can’t give away,

Lost some dreams, so let's just pray,

I feel like flying, without being sway,

So can’t let my faith in me drift away.

Yesterday to tomorrow

Stepping out in the sunshine,

leaving back the prime time,

holding up my hands to the sky,

begging for a merciful deep cry,

hoping for tears to stay true to me,

they were slipping away; why couldn't i see,

the cloud once mine, rained somewhere else,

its getting hard to breathe and being myself,

before tomorrow comes and stare at me,

lets prepare ourselves for the next journey,

in search of the unanswered questions of fate,

let's breathe in hope, let's put what's left at stake,

then senses respond to the sun casting an unseen shadow,

today connects to the soul of desperation, something hollow,

mind treads through time, yesterday to tomorrow,

feels like trapped between my new bliss and old sorrow,

lost in the shaken beliefs, and the truths unspoken,

the heart tells you the story of being broken,

your faithful tears leave your eyes alone,

and its hard to differentiate between a heart and a stone.

Reclaiming Dreams

Don't we all have dreams? Some things we want to achieve in our lives. But seldom we let ourselves pursue them. We consider the people who actually make a run for it, LUCKY!

But the fact is, we have to do something. I came across a post, regarding what holds you back from your dreams. The link is at the end of this post. I agree with it. But, things can be difficult because circumstances are different with everybody. But, the possibility is there. It is. 

The only basic reason for not doing it is that we start doubting it. Uncertainty comes into action. But here is a line from that post that puts up the right thing so clearly:

"No one knows how to make their desires real prior to taking the first step. Knowing comes from doing. Paths are made by walking."

So, we got to give them a try, most of us are busy, in work and home life. or studies and home life. But, if we really want something, i mean really really want it, at least we can take few steps in that direction. Just to see, just to KNOW, if that's the path you want. 

The examples (given in the post) for having doubts and not being able to step forward are:

• Not knowing what will happen if you fail.
• Being afraid of going for what you want.
• Lack of belief in yourself.
• Fear of being wrong.
• And yes, sometimes even fear of success.

And, I agree with them. Thinking clearly is very important. Being uncertain is not. 

Someone once told me, taking risks is really important (calculated ones though). We should. 

An Eagle wont know for sure that she can fly, unless she pushes herself into the air out of the nest. (of course better to have someone to make the push, that helps. A lot).

So, go for it... go go go! :)

Link: Reclaiming your dreams, its time to come alive

Pearl Jam - Release

This song is surreal. The feel of it, carried me away. Been listening to it for quite some time now. The live performance I am sharing, is magestic. I wish that I were there. The lyrics are strong. Deep. Intriguing. Putting them here as well...

The Lyrics

Pearl Jam - Release

Father...ooh...oh...oh...

I see the world, feel the chill

Which way to go, windowsill

I see the worlds on a rocking horse of time

I see the verse in the rain

Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh...

Oh, dear dad, can you see me now

I am myself, like you somehow

Ill ride the wave where it takes me

Ill hold the pain...

Release me...

Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh...

Oh, dear dad, can you see me now

I am myself, like you somehow

Ill wait up in the dark for you to speak to me

Ill open up...

Release me...

Release me...

Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh...

Some changes are for good...

Some people get scared of the changes happening around them. Some can't handle them, just being scared with the thought that why are they happening? and what would they do about it? They get scared of the thoughts like, whats next? what would be the result of the change? Then the ultimate thought arises, that is it for the good or the bad??

But to be on the best side of things, instead of thinking, that this change would be about something bad in your life, its better to think positive, and hopeful. Because thinking hopeless wont help, so there is no harm in giving a chance to your hopeful, and consistent positive thoughts. Just think, make it your state of mind, that you will get the best out of the change, because some changes in life are the blessings in disguise. Changes seem initially unacceptable, but as the time moves on, they turn out pretty well. 

Every human deserves the best out of life. If its not happening, thinking negative won't help either, so the best bargain is you keep your mind hopeful for the good things. Because thinking negative will only make you feel worse, not better, not ready. Instead, being hopeful, also makes you feel better.

Accept the changes, work with them. Expect the best output. Expect the best for yourself. Expect the best of you.

Good luck to all.

Peace!

My Asylum

Finally i have some time to put something up. This is something I wrote for myself, when life was letting me down, with every new trick in the book. Now I smile at those times. And this thing shows how I felt back then. But now this simple write up, helps me believe in myself. Here's the read.

My Asylum

Let us put our hands together,

raise ourselves higher forever,

breath in dangers, breath out life,

ditch the devil, have an angel by my side,

truth in my hands, falling through lies,

falling through darkness, through the blind skies,

seeking asylum in myself without deceiving my soul,

Just me and myself, lets rock and roll,

expectations, lead me to the ninth sky,

a perceived asylum, somewhere where wishes fly,

rule the life, live the nature, play with the fate,

defy the truths, deceive the treacherous rhythms it make,

cant ignore, it will always be there,

here in my heart, and there, and everywhere,

live, be happy, let it be, let it through,

everything isn't perfect, your asylum is in you,

its you, hey my mind, let us be friends,

stretch strong, beyond those limited ends,

waiting for you, there isn't any one else,

let us fly, just gonna be you, me and myself.

Sleeping At Last - Careful Hands

Just got to listen to this wonderful track. It has the melody that some what feels like a healer. The meaning of lyrics are really deep for me. And also for those who want to perceive the positivity of nature, in simplest of ways.

All those out there, who are going through some kind of suffering, for those to whom life has been cruel in some way, i have just one thing to say never let go of hope. Just don't let go. Questions are answered.

Enjoy the track.

Link of the song

The lyrics: 

"Careful Hands" by "Sleeping At Last"

"Put your coat on, this city trembles.

Keep your chin up, as you untangle God

From cold blood and bruises.

We are X-rays of something broken.

Cursive bloodlines write every forecast:

An orchestration Of dissonance and innocent surrender.

When our color dies,

We will bury the ashes of time,

And we will earn new eyes.

Wrists get tired rewriting futures.

Our bodies beg us to be creatures of habit.

We are creatures of habit.

Only with careful hands

We’ll turn their fangs into feathers and cures.

Only with careful hands

We’ll divide the prisoner

From the pioneer.

Clever beauty,

Umbrellas folding.

In architecture, our lines will measure

A map to find us.

Blue ink will guide us home.

Cranes are creeping, lifting metal,

We will find new ways to settle,

Tipping scales from the killer to its prey.

I can feel the weight around us,

Climbing every rib inside us,

A sanctuary in a lion’s mouth"